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tu dia bunyi jam yang kurasakan semakin laju dan bunyi degupan jantungku yang semakin kencang...tak lama lagi akan berjumpa dengan si dia yang sudah lama tak ketemu...adalah dekat 9tahun lamanye...rinduuuu!!! sehinggakan malam2ku sejak akhir2 ini asyik termimpi2kan dirimu...

dulu...nyesal jugak sebab takmo bergamba bersama2..eksenkan aku ini?..haaaa..lepas tu nyesal tak sudah..yelah, pertemuan yang tak dirakamkan, takde bahan bukti kalau orang bertanya "betul ke dah pernah jumpe?"...isk isk isk..itulah orang kata, kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah jua yang menentukan...

nervous, takut, risau, gelisah, excited...segalanya berbaur...diriku tertanya2..apakah kau masih seperti dahulu? atau..sudah berubahkah dikau?

harap2 dan muga2 kita dipertemukan lagi pada awal pagi 4mei ini! muga2 dijauhkan segala bentuk halangan, hujan, pemikiran negatif/"tidak boleh" dan dipermudahkan segala urusan kami ini...

ohhh PAPAN TANDA PUNCAK KINABALU...nantikan daku!!! hehehehe...

Taiping

Last weekend my Kinabalu/KOMA geng and I went to Taiping for Rogaining game and hiking at Bukit Larut. Perak is such a beautiful place for outdoor activities and photography. My camera battery almost went dead just to take clouds and scenery pics along the highway. Gigam bak kata orang KOMA. *Gigam=gila gamba*


Once we had settled with our stay at Taman Lake View homestay, we planned to have a group dinner that nite after those who joined Rogaining finished with their briefing. So, me Fatma Amie Dila and Dayang went for an aimless adventure driving in Taiping while waiting for them. Since it was an aimless driving, (the main objective later was decided, to buy Fatma's top-up at 7Eleven), we somehow got lost. We were already in Kamunting and headed to Butterworth by Amie's GPS guidance. Haru-biru masa tu. At last, we finally found our way back by following our own instincts. It was quite late at that time that we all had separate dinner with the others. Lepas makan, terus balik, penat, terus tido.

While some of us involved with Rogaining on that Sunday morning, the five of us went for hiking thru the jungles of Bukit Larut. I was hoping to take pics of flora and fauna that are rarely found since I borrowed a macro lens from Razif. Susah jugak nak guna kalau tak praktis dulu. Berat pulak tu coz there are 3 flashes attached to the camera and lens. Hiking pulak stamina kurang. Huhu. Sampai Permai View, after 8km hiking, we headed back to kaki bukit by truck. Gigil lutut.

Zana's team won for the 2nd prize for Open Mixed category while Zahir's team won the Dynamic Team title. Congrats guys!

We headed back home that nite around 7pm. It was in the middle of our journey back, when I felt a cold small object at my right upper leg. When we stopped at perhentian Tapah for solat, I was rushing to the ladies. Ada pacat pulak dlm seluar kat pangkal peha pulak tuh. Patut la rasa sejuk semacam sebab darah byk keluar. Solat memang kene bukak jeans. Hish...ngeri sungguh!

Sampai rumah dlm kul 1 pagi. Ngantuk kat opis esoknye. Zzzzzzzzzzzz.....

I am...

I am so sorry if u are furious with my bit-harsh-but-true email. Believe me, u are not the one that I aimed for ;)

I am not sorry for myself. I am who I am. Any suggestions on how Eta should improve herself are most welcomed. But I would see to it as I think it is required.

I am feeling sorry for those who live in their hypocrite world. Never make promises u tend not to keep. Never say something u don't actually mean to say to people, then talk behind their back later on.

I am a bit down in the dumps today. Perhaps, work stress..? office politic..? I just don't feel I am appreciated by my bosses, that's all. Susah sangat ke nak isi borang permanent tuh?! It's really hard when u have to fight all alone! Sedih! Camne kalau tiba2 dapat termination letter? Mana nak carik keje? Kontrak abis early of this coming may. Takutnye!

I am now realize that worries or anger that I may have in me may not lead me to any good. Those two could just bring more destruction to my own life or my own emotional health in particular.

I am glad and thankful for the life that I've been given. I am healthy person, physically and mentally. I have my beloved family, who are always there for me. I also have lots of great frens, and we care for each other. We may rarely show it, but we just know it.

Surely, there are always solutions to every problem...Harap2...

Beguk? tak suke....

Please, not now.......!

FRIM

Me and my Kinabalu geng, Dila Amie Fatma and some of Fatma's frens, went to FRIM for hiking and picnic last Sunday. I just wore jeans and shirts with the thoughts of PICNIC agenda in mind. Nak bawak baju spare lepas mandi-manda pun tak terpikir langsung. Menarik dan besa FRIM nih. Ramai orang datang beriadah dgn keluarga dan tak kurang juga kompeni2 yang buat aktiviti rekreasi kat sini.

Berjaya simpan bukti sampai ke puncak.

Antara yang pegi hiking. Check kedatangan melalui kasut.

"Kalau mak meninggal..."

I was in the office busy preparing slides during lunch time when my mum called. "Mak Long dah meninggal kat Seremban, rumah Abang Nyai(my cousin). Awak nak balik rumah kul brapa?"

I was so shocked and paused for a long time before I replied "Innalillah...nanti eta confirm dengan mak balik". "OK". End of conversation.

Unsure what to do, I asked my colleagues. "Makcik saya meninggal.. macammana ek?" I heard myself asking the dumbest question of the day. They suggested me to go back home and they would let my boss know once she came back from lunch. So I just emailed with whatever I have finished with the slides, hoping my teammates would be OK without me in the meeting.

Eventhough I may never be her fave niece, Mak Long will always be one of my fave aunties. She was so full of love, kind-hearted and soft-spoken. She always greeted me and my family with our favorite kuih like tapai and kuih koci whenever she knew we would come to pay her a visit. I will surely lepak longer at her house every time I went back to kampung.

That evening, me and my mum were heading to our kampung in Johor since we were told she would be buried there after Isya. In the car, we discussed a couple of things that relate to Islam when a person dies such as the will and inheritance distribution in Islam, the appropriate place and time to bury and the journey to the afterlife.

And that was when my mum told me "Kalau mak meninggal, tak payah tunggu lama2 atau nak tunggu Fara(my sis who's still studying in Indon) balik Malaysia, terus tanam jek..." I hate it when she kept on saying that these past few years. It just makes me sad. So I just kept silence and rather not respond to her. Sometimes I even changed the topic. Tak baik kan?

Malam tu, sedih dan sebak masa mendoakan kesejahteraan Mak Long masa solat jenazah. Eta doakan semoga roh Mak Long dicucuri rahmat dan berada dikalangan orang yang soleh dan baik2. Alfatihah. Amin.

Something to share: "When one dies, everything in this earthly life is left behind, and there are no more opportunities to perform acts of righteousness and faith. The Prophet Muhammad once said that there are three things, however, which may continue to benefit a person after death: charity given during life which continues to help others, knowledge from which people continue to benefit, and a righteous child who prays for him or her."

My Legs are Killing me!

If you noticed a gorgeous woman..yang ayu berbaju kurung..in her high heels, walking like a penguin this whole week, yeah, you saw it right! That was me.

Me and my legs problem are inseparable. Especially when travelling and having outdoor activities that require me to walk or run a lot. At the moment, my legs are recovering with the help of R-I-C-E, Rest Ice Compression and Elevation.

I am also thinking to buy a new pair of running shoes. Hope this will solve my problem. I really need to get back into my Kinabalu training routine. And I will look into proper stretching too......

Batu Caves

What is so special about Batu Caves at the moment? Haaa..ni bukan nak pi baya nazar atau nak sambut Thaipusam eh. Semuanye gara2 nak join centralized training for Kinabalu via Ferrata expedition. And my first time ever in meeting people that I've never met face-to-face before too. The only person that I know in the team was Jai. But he's now in Thailand, working, and will be back to KL another few more weeks to join us for this Kinabalu trip. I guess, making frens with my other teammates is not such a difficult thing to do after all. Alah, kawan Jai, macam Jai jugak tuh. And it proves me right. They are easy to get along with and cheerful too! ;)


Lepas subuh terus jek drive ke situ dan sampai dalam 7am. Takde manusia kecuali burung merpati yang banyak dan jinak. Yeah, today in history, the Batu Caves was officially opened by ME! I also captured some pics while waiting for others. Above, focusing on the white pigeon and blurring a row of other pigeons and the background using my new lens, 50mm f/1.8.


There are 272 steps altogether, but I didn't have the energy to concentrate on counting them. I only managed to climb 3 times to the top. Pastu tak larat. Camno ni eta???


Pic of us having breakfast after training. Depa ni semua terer2 dan laju2 belaka, takut jek saya ini dibiarkan tertinggal merata2 masa naik Kinabalu nanti...huhu..

Dia amik tempat tido saya!

Lena betul Push-push ni tido. Nak kejutkan tak sampai hati....

Bukit Broga

Sabtu lepas me and my photo geng ke Bukit Broga, ketinggian dalam 400m dari aras laut, kat Semenyih untuk sesi tangkap gamba. Tepukan untuk WanLiana kerana berjaya organize aktiviti ini dengan jayanya.

*tepuk*
*tepuk*
*tepuk*

Kami janji berkumpul kul 5.00am depan entrance Uniten. Bertolak dalam 5.05am sebab saya terdatang lambat. Sori guys, ingatkan rumah paling dekat senang nak kejar masa..heee..

Sampai kat kaki bukit, kat ladang kelapa sawit, agak cepat dalam 5.30am. Depa praktis F1 kot. Tapi risau jugak sebab hujan rintik2. Luper nak bawak ponco atau plastik. Yang penting nak cover kamera dan lens. Other than that did not seem to matter at that time. Sib baik hujan kucing dan anjing kejap jek. Pastu reda kembali. Syukur...

Nak dekat sampai puncak kami berenti sat solat subuh. Saya ditugaskan membawa kompas kiblat dan tikar. Malam tu punye la selongkar carik tikar takut tak cukup untuk para jemaah. Terpaksa lah bawak tambahan 2 bijik sleeping bags. Rupenye depa bukan nak solat jemaah. Tapi sendirian berhad. Ish ish ishhh.. Huhu...Takpe eta, ikhlaskan diri..Pahala tu..Pahalaaa..

Lepas solat, naik lagik. Penatnye nak sampai puncak. Sapa kata 30minit dari kaki bukit? Haha. Mungkin untuk pendaki amatur macam kami ni dlm 45minit ler. Tapi berbaloi2. Bila sampai kat atas jek, pemandangannya.. Subhanallah, menakjubkan sungguh ciptaan Allah ini. Awan cantik, siap pelangi, langit membiru, lalang2 berbunga..everything there was so breathtaking. Segala penat dah seakan hilang.

Tapi sayang. I was not into landscape or scenery at that time. Banyak candid gamba orang jek yang telah diuploadkan kat FB. All in all, Bukit Broga memang BEST!!! (balik umah terus tumbang & flat....)

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